Something very strange and unexpected happened to me to today. I received a message from an old friend, someone I have known for a very long time. We have both taken very different paths in our lives, but strangely, ended up living in the same country, on the other side of the world from where we started, in more ways than one.
Through out our relationship we have always argued and disagreed about beliefs, semantics, each other’s approach to life and what we both want. However the one very common theme through out and only consistent place of alignment, is that we both care about each other, deeply.
It occurred to me having received their recent message, that even after all this time and EVERYTHING that we have both been through, that I still feel completely misunderstood by my friend and however much I have tried to explain or even demonstrate through my actions, who I am in the world, I feel like I am constantly being asked to qualify my approach. Along with feeling exhausted by this, it also leaves me feeling hurt, depleted and as if I am banging my head against a very hard brick wall.
So today I made a choice, that all though there is love, respect and huge admiration for my friend, I, can no longer create the space or want to make the effort to maintain a friendship, that without meaning to, feels so unsupportive and more of a battle, than a joy. Sometimes, although it can hurt like hell, we need to let go of the things in our lives that no longer support or enable us to grow. Just as a beautiful tree or blossoming shrub, needs to be trimmed back, so that it grow even greener and riper, in its next season, we must also bravely, prune back our own branches and make space for the ones that will bare the sweetest fruit, moving forward.