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I’m here with the Cubs in the UK, spending the last of what has been a rather epic whole six weeks aways from the Sydney shores, that I love so much. And as those cheeky cubs of mine, maul their gorgeous Grand parents and tease and nip their old Grandpa’s mane, once again, I am absolutely blown away, by the concept and wonder of legacy. So here in a little cluster of words, is my way of saying Happy Birthday to a man I will always love and thank you to the amazing two, who’s son will never be forgotten!

It’s the eve of a birthday shared by both father and son and a day, that whilst was once filled with the raucous celebration of life, is now the annual and mighty endurance of two adoring parents, who’s baby boy died far too young.

And as the days lead up to the memory of his birth and the magnificent hour that their little birthday boy was born,  I watch as the pain spills out in plenty.

This year however, the air is thick and warm with love and their heavy tears are caught like little melted snow flakes, under that watchful eye of the delighted young, who know, with a wisdom that is far beyond their years, that sadness, sorrow and joy, are nothing more than the shades of love and the seasons of life.

Happy Birthday gorgeous men!

Below is what Andy’s mum handed me and shares so profoundly of who she is.

He is gone…

You can shed tears that he is gone

Or you can simply smile he has lived

You can close your eyes and pray that he will come back

Or you can open your eyes and see all that he left

Your heart can be empty because you can’t see him

Or you can be full of the love that you shared

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday

Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday

You can remember him and only that he is gone

Or you can cherish his memory and let him live on

You can cry and close your  mind, be empty and turn your back

Or you can do what he would want, smile, open your eyes, love and go on…

 -David Harkins 1981

  • Shirley Mortimer

    So touching, my thoughts are with you. I feel your loss, although not the same I realized, but I loss my mom to cancer at age 56, She has been gone for 23 years now. Andy was an amazing man, from what i can see, we fans going get a glimpse of the man, actor, husband an father. Nothing but Love xx

  • Laz

    So touching and real that poem. . my heart and thoughts are with all of you . Andy a beautiful human been that brought so much to our lives with his work .my hero always will be remembered . Be here now his legacy .Happy birthday hero …..💙💙💙

  • Verdallh

    The words of this poem is so touching and on the same side so inspiring, thank you for sharing. Happy birthday to Andy and his dad.Andy an unique being in his own right, but thank you as well for being inspiring and sharing and baring all so that others can face their challenges daily.Please continue to be person you are, and the messages you spread of live,love and letting go. Happy birthday Andy

    Much love from Cape Town South Africa

  • raelynn32768

    I am blown away…. Speechless. You, Andy’s parents, and your littles are so wise and so strong. God Bless you all, and God Bless Andy. Such a legacy, and such a mark he’s left on millions. His light will never fade. Love you all, and Thank You so much for everything!!! ♥️♥️♥️

  • Terri

    His mom sounds like someone really special and I am sure his father is as well for both to create such a lovely man and soul as Andy. Thank you for sharing this corner of your life. the poem was just beautiful and made me cry as I read it as I still miss my parents so much (its been 3 years). Sometimes it takes a while to truly move on, I feel like I have in my head, but not my heart. I am so grateful for the love I was given. I love that poem…brought tears to my eyes. As always Vashti, thank you for sharing your heart.

  • YQH

    Nice to know you Vashti,I’m a 19-year-old Spartacus fan whom from China,as I had become a fan of Andy while I’ve been a Spartacus fan,Spartacus was a great hero in my heart,and so did Andy.Happy birthday to Andy and his dad,God bless you all.
    Much Love from Yibin,Sichuan,China

  • Shelly DiPhillipo

    Your post’s always bring me to such emotion and thought. Thank you for sharing that part of yourself and the life you shared with Andy and now with his children and your extended family. You are such a special person to do what you do for others. Lovely poem as well thanks for posting.

  • alice

    i wish i cuold tell andy how much i love him… it melts my heart every time i think about him…

  • Jennifer

    My ex husband and I have been back together for 13 months now. We dated for 2 years, were engaged for 2 years, married for 7, divorced for 7, and very happily back together now. We were talking about finding a show to watch together that we thought we’d both like. I told him that I’d started watching Spartacus a while back, hadn’t finished, but wouldn’t mind starting over with him because it was so good. Well, we just finished binging all 13 episodes this past week and loved it. Andy really made Spartacus. So, this evening, we couldn’t wait to start the next season and were so upset not to see Andy. That’s when I decided to start googling to learn more, and, sadly, came to learn of Andy’s passing. The tears streamed down my cheeks uncontrollably. My father currently battles cancer and I feel you. Mrs. Whitfield, your poem brings tears and smiles to my heart. God bless you all, and know that a stranger acrss the ocean in Fairless Hills, Pennsylvania, has you in her thoughts and prayers. Love Jennifer

  • Regina

    I just came from the screening of “Be here now” in Toronto. I waited for so long to see this documentary, because I was a really huge fan of his work in spartacus and it melted my heart when I knew he had cancer. I admired him! and I still do… but after watching “Be here now” I have to say I got to know you and I truly admire your strength! You are a really powerful woman and I am really glad he found you, because you were always with him, always! He was really lucky to spend his last days with such a powerful woman and beautiful children… I have to say that his fight was admirable too! And i got so frustrated that after so much pain and fight! He couldn’t kill the cancer… but thats my challenge in life, let things go! And you guys helped me to understand more about it… I don’t know how you do this! But I truly admire your strength.

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