Beautiful man…

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I found this beautiful quote just after our first son was born and then read it aloud with Andy, tearfully at my side, at Jesse Red’s naming ceremony.

Today a year after our gorgeous strong, funny, silly, charming, passionate, humble, stubborn, creative, brave, shy and unforgettably beautiful man that was Andy, fluttered off, onto his next great adventure, I realize that I feel compelled to read it once more.

But this time, as I read it, I address it to my beautiful husband, my best friend, my partner in crime and the incredible father of Jesse Red and Indigo Sky.

To beautiful Andy…..

‘Before you were conceived I wanted you

Before you were born I loved you

Before you were here an hour I would give my life for you

This is the miracle of life’       ~ Maureen Hawkins

Forever and always gorgeous man, I shall love your from afar!

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  • Theresa

    Beautiful! Tearfully read. Hugs to you and yours.

  • CAROLINE

    Beautiful Vashti. You’re a woman who has taken the fear out of the anticipation of dealing with death. Reading your beautiful stories has left me feeling strong to face all that life has to offer, good and bad. Your way of coping with your beautiful husband’s death has given me great hope, strength and faith in myself to deal with the inevitable changes in life. I thankyou for being a beautiful teacher, woman and Mother. You’re proof that we can be strong and can move forward. x

  • Alex

    Great picture. Can’t believe that it’s one year now since Andys death. Time’s running.

  • David MacKay

    I will share this beautiful poem at a special time in my….which I hope is one day soon. For now, bask in your husband’s light today which shines brilliantly not just from the sun above you at home but in the eyes of your children, and from people like me (in Washington DC) who are far away yet feel enlightened today after reading your blog.

  • La Lena

    <3<3<3<3

  • Kathy

    As I wipe my tears away I salute your strength & bravery thinking of you all today Vashti & a candle burns in Andy’s memory xxx

  • Simon

    Massive love to you and the family today. X

  • Rebeccahyn

    Always in my heart xo

  • KeeleyLoves

    “Well time cures hearts of tenderness…then you can let him go….” Sending love to you all and in remembering Andy, will promise to try to “Be Here Now” everyday. Kisses x x

  • Irene Mitropoulos

    It was hard to read that without crying. We all remember him today and have him forever in our hearts. God bless you V and tour beautiful family, someday you’ll be together again to share your love, jokes, warmth and eachother. Much much luv to you my dear. Xxx

  • Lindsey

    I’m so moved by what you are doing, how you choose to honor the person who meant so much to you, how you choose to be happy despite everything. You obviously had a beautiful relationship with him and my heart goes out to you and your children as I am sure you all miss him every minute of every day. Cheers to you and your courage. I admire you.

  • sandra james

    <3

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000203917220 Norbert Süss

    Remembering Andy today and thinking of you and your little ones, too. I’d like to send you all my love and prayers…Today is not the day of mourning for the loss, but to celebrate the time you had together. Always in our hearts, always our hero. I’m sure Andy’s watching from the other side of the door and he surely is very very proud of his loved ones. Much hugs from Germany, Vashti! Thank you for being part of my life…

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=818507821 Patricia J Tibbits

    Beautiful…Fits perfectly. As we look up into the dark sky and see the brightest star, we know that is Andy, looking over you all & seeing you grow stronger everyday & watch Jesse & Indy grow up to be amazing, intelligent, funny, beautiful, loving, sucessful, couragoues human beings, just like you and Andy…Blessings to you, Jesse & Indigo xx <3

  • Vic

    Beautiful!

  • Alexis Carril

    Just beautiful!!!!

  • Kuhlgirl

    My heart hurts today… for you, your family, for Andy, and for all of those who are still healing after a profound loss in their lives. Blessings.

  • Marina B.

    One day far from now, you and Andy, will be together again and Nothing and No One can ever separate you forever. For now, accept my warm and affectionate hug for you Vashti and your adorable children.

  • Healing FighterFemme

    Tearfully we will all miss your Beautiful Andy as he is travelling upon a different plain of existance. Occasionally fluttering down to touch your life and remind you of why your little family is so very special. Always keeping Andy close to heart…………but especially today, which I imagine is one of the hardest of all.
    Beautiful Poem & so very befitting…………

    Much Love

  • jeannette

    Tears falling and thinking of you all, your Andy is missed and loved by so many xx You are an amazing family and our love and respect are always yours xx

  • http://twitter.com/nan4bsb Nancy

    Beautiful and heartbreaking…my thoughts are with your family today.

  • GannicusFan^^

    i have tears in my eyes right now,wonderful words

  • http://www.facebook.com/PennyDouglas Penny Douglas

    From the Heavens, Angels sing, because they have gained the resplendent and shining soul that is Andy, your extraordinary love, and we all were blessed and lucky to have known him for the small time that we did, us, the extended family of fans! To you Vashti, JR, and Indi, my heart, my love, my prayers, always to you, Jai, Andy’s parents, his siblings, everyone who knew him so intimately, I feel your pain and know you are hurting today, but you have such strength to be able towalk ahead, knowing his spirit is with you still, watching over you. Sending you guys all my love, and hugs today and every day!! XOXO <3

    • Jennifer M

      Beautiful Penny!

      • http://www.facebook.com/PennyDouglas Penny Douglas

        Thank you Jennifer, it was from my heart. I hope Vashti also felt it!<3

  • valarie

    that put a smile to my face, and to know you and he still touch people’s hearts.

  • http://www.facebook.com/Begox Begoña Garcia Diez

    It’s so sad but so beautiful. Now you and your children are going to be getting stronger you are a person who has the gift of resiliency as well once said a wise man: The man who gets up is stronger than it has not fallen. “

  • Tinks

    Bless you and your littles, Vashti. It must be so hard for you to get thru these days.. memories bringing laughter and tears. The difference you and Andy have made to peoples outlook and lives is beyond words… thank you for letting us all into your life so intimately… like a close friend. Your brave husband will always be in our hearts… love and peace… xo

  • Marie

    With the upmost respect!! totally in awe and admiration of you your family your tenacity for life!! Your philosophy is infectious, your words beautiful and inciteful, your wisdom and witt refreshing!! I salute you as the world is better place with people like u in it!! You make me want to be a better person and live life!! Asi sit here celebrating life and the beauty of world!! I need to thank u letting me share in yours and andy’s legacy as its opened my eyes to a whole new adventure!! To andy and vashti Whitfield inspiration to us all!! Xxx

  • Diggz

    Rest in Peace Champion

  • Andrea

    As I read this ,I don’t know that I would have the ability to bare myself in the way you do. I feel sadness and admiration at the way you handle a loss of a loved one with such grace. Sadness for myself (yes I know selfish) but I can’t imagine, or want to ,dealing with the fathom of loss of someone so close to me. We the public only knew him through his work to you he was husband,father,best friend which gives us a glimpse into the grieving process. My heart goes out to you and your children and also all the nameless people out of the public eye who are dealing as you, with such a terrible loss of a loved one day by day year by year….

  • G.Holbrook

    What beautiful love shared between husband and wife. May His love carry you today…and always.

  • Michelle H

    Vashti, you are one of the strongest people I have grown to know by reading you’re blogs. I have read all of your stories and have shed tears and laughter reading them, but never wrote anything because to me, I felt that my words couldnt come close to expressing my thought of what an amazing person I thought you were. But today, I wanted to let you know that Im using your words for strength. As I’m writing this my friend is going through chemo treatment, it’s her first treatment so we don’t know how she will do,but I pray that it won’t be too harsh on her. her and I both have babies very close in age and have been friends since grade school. I cant imagine her not being
    around. but then I come back to all o
    f your blogs and how you talk about
    strength and enjoying every moment.
    Today ,I keep your words with me
    dear to my heart, and want to thank
    you for being that strong person for
    me today,in order for me to be strong
    for her. They alwayz say that behind
    a great man is an extraordinary woman, you and Andy have proven
    that.

    and never taking anything for granted

    about just enjoying life every moment

  • Michelle H

    apologies for my post got mixed up my phone was acting up…

  • michelbarreau

    bel hommage de vashti a son grand amour .Nous sommes avec vous en ce jour.Andy est notre dieu d amour

  • http://www.facebook.com/christine.mckeown3 Christine McKeown

    Just Beautiful~ My thoughts are with you and your family on this day~

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1226116395 Irene Mahon

    hi vashti thinking of you today and wishing you with all my heart …..that you find some peace ..Andy was a very brave soul…and very couragous we all loved him so …i think you no that …if you did nt you do now…..so my gorgeous sweet lady …….as i said …love ..and….peace …to you and your sweet jesse red and beautiful indigo sky …..may things become normal in your life…..if thats posible my biggest hugs …he was and still is such a special man what you wrote about him is so fitting …he was a wonderful human being …..and most of all your man …..here s to a brighter future we will never forget Andy he really was 1 of a kind ….god bless you Vashti and your sweet babies…….love you so much ….mumma bear …irene….xxxxxxx

  • Athena

    Others live a lifetime and never experience what you have… awful as it is to have lost your love too early. You and Andy have created two beautiful souls that will always remind you of what love really means!

  • Lan

    Beautiful quote,I just want you to know my thoughts are with you and your family especially on this day, I can’t stop thinking about your beautiful Andy, you Vashti and your adorable babies. You are such a strong person and such an inspirational to all of us. Thank you for letting us share this day with you. Lots of Love and Hugs from California. XOXO

  • Susan_Mangan

    A gorgeous quote Vashti. Extra big hugs to you, Jesse and Indi today.
    Hope you have a beautiful day together! xxx

  • http://www.facebook.com/wendy.m.helms Wendy McNew Helms

    Today is a very emotional day for America and the beautiful family that had an amazing man to bless their lives,my heart goes out to an extremely strong woman who inspires me and moves me with her great strength, courage and love. My thoughts and prayers to you Vashti, Jesse red and Indigo sky. I enjoy following you and your family through your journeys in life. I hope you continue with Maybe McQueen. I will light a candle for ANDY and your family. Please know that there are millions of people sending love to you and Andy’s family all over the globe! God bless you and all that enter your path in life. hugs Wendy

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100002551707917 Cheznazi Samji

    The last few days I have been imagining him moonwalking with my beloved Michael Jackson in heaven. Was Andy a good dancer? It’s okay because he is surrounded by my loved ones (Shammi Kapoor & Michael Jackson) amongst others who will help him dance and keep him happy and safe and entertained and help shine his light bigger and brighter! It’s the rest of us here who have to learn to swallow our tears every time we think of him and the great talent and superb man that he was. I didn’t know him that well. But what I knew of him I loved him more for it. And, Vashti, you could be right you know … many of us in my religion believe couples are made in heaven long before we are born….

  • Tess

    That’s beautiful and perfect. I hope you don’t mind if I borrow that quote.

  • Claire Abbott

    Beautiful xxxx

  • http://twitter.com/epgomez8 Paola Gomez

    THANK YOU ANDY! THANK YOU VASHTI! You have made the world a sweeter place. We now remember who to be right now and that we are always together : ) xoxo

  • http://www.facebook.com/nico.matting Nico Matting

    Very beautiful words…already one year has passed and I think all of us still can’t believe what happened. Although Andy is gone in physical way he will live in our bleeding hearts forever and he is looking on you & JR & Indi from the other side. Today we should not mourn for this extreme loss, we should celebrate the life and all what Andy gave to us instead. It is such an huge honor to know you and I send you all of my love. many hugs from Germany. <3 xoxo

  • Tara Walllace

    Your words bring me my to tears. My thoughts & prayers are with u & littles today:) Such a beautiful man gone to soon! May you find comfort in our words today & every day as you for amazing woman!

  • Jenny

    Dear Vashti,
    I wish you and your littles all the love, happiness, and warmth in the world. I hope today has been a peaceful one.
    Originally, for me, today was going to be about all the little things that make me happy and passing on happy moments to others but it occurred to me that I want to do that everyday. Reading your blog has inspired me. Not only to be a better and more positive person but to try new things. Reading about your memories with Andy and your journey since he left is truly uplifting.
    Thank you for everything. You’ve changed my life.
    XXXX

  • Dilyana Konstantinova

    Today we should choose to remember all that Andy was,the amazing generosity of good that he put out into the world, and the legacy that he left behind of love, compassion, and fearlessness, a legacy that continues to grow and grow, triumphing over the loss of such a beautiful human being.
    The world lost one of its brightest gifts – a man who loved and was loved by so many, most of whom he never knew. Big hugs ♥♥♥ Vashti.

  • Kianceta

    Just beautiful !

  • Tanja from Bavaria

    With tears in my eyes I am writing you from the bottom of my heart. Especially on this day, I think very much of you. My thoughts are with you, your children and Andy. Since I´ve been following your blog, I often think about the meaning of life. I´m going in October 38 years old , I´m married, no kids, unfortunately. And I ask myself: what will happen to me in this LIFE? And my answer is: I do not know! I try every day to make a good day of it. When I have a bad day I think of you (what would make Vashti?) You are a really great woman and an inspiration. All my love to you, with big big hugs and a Bussi.

  • http://www.facebook.com/people/Stefan-Heikel/93402728 Stefan Heikel

    Vashti, if I’m able to love someone half as much as you loved Andy, I would consider myself lucky.
    How you have taken the tragedy of his death and turned it into something positive is nothing short of inspiring. It has in turn inspired me to do the same.
    Andy lives on in you, your children, and his millions of fans all around the world.

  • Mikki

    Thank you Andy, you touched my life and gave me direction, I gather strength from you in my thoughts, that keep me on my path.

    A moment is precious,
    Every life divine,
    Eternally entwined.

    Love and Ki to you Jesse and Red.

    • Mikki

      Indigo, my apologies.

  • sean

    beautiful words and still sorely missed, you are a brave and strong women vashti, thinking of andy….. god speed xx

  • Bobbie Ryan

    I am not going to act like I knew Andy, other than what you have shared with us and of course his extremely gifted work as an actor. That said after having read your blog and your twitter for quite a bit, I feel complede to say you Vashti are a one in a million kind of women. Who’s strength, wisdom and bravery, have humbled me and complede me to make my life count. Somewhere Andy is watching. I know he must be very proud of you. SInce I don’t even truly know and I am. So on this day that we remember your great man, I send you and your little’s a big warm hug!
    “To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.”
    ― Oscar Wilde

  • Bobbie Ryan

    And this is for tomorrow when life goes on
    “Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
    Life is beauty, admire it.
    Life is a dream, realize it.
    Life is a challenge, meet it.
    Life is a duty, complete it.
    Life is a game, play it.
    Life is a promise, fulfill it.
    Life is sorrow, overcome it.
    Life is a song, sing it.
    Life is a struggle, accept it.
    Life is a tragedy, confront it.
    Life is an adventure, dare it.
    Life is luck, make it.
    Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
    Life is life, fight for it.”
    ― Mother Teresa

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100001288193910 Just Jennifer Boisvert

    My heart goes out to you, beautiful Vashti, today of all days. I remember when I heard, I threw my phone across the room and fell down sobbing in tears (and I never even met him personally!). We (my and my better half) just got back from a late lunch celebrating our 12 year wedding anniversary.

    So much has changed in the last year. Through the ashes and cloudy days, the sun rose and like the Phoenix, you found your strength to carry on. What a noble creature you are!!!
    And we, humbled by the event (not 9/11, but Andy), have now changed our Anniversary, to 9-9. So we celebrated our 13th anniversary Sunday, without a dark cloud in the sky to remind us of those we loved and lost.
    But strangely, if it weren’t for the events last year, we wouldn’t have known how wonderful, funny, goofy, wise, fabulous and amazeballs person you are!!! We adored him as much as we adore you now.
    Keep on trucking, keep on keeping on. We love you and are so thankful to have a piece of the “friend” we lost last year, alive and well in his better half.
    We love you Vashti!!! I love you, you amazing woman you!!!! Big, huge HUGS!!!!!!
    <3 Jennifer

  • melinda

    Sending love x

  • slytherin

    I can only agree with the previous speakers. I read it with tears in my eyes, what for great words! My thoughts are today at Andy´s beloved family… i find it hard to find the right words.It´s a great loss for you , Vashti, Jesse Red and Indigo Sky! I´m just sad how so many fans around the world. Now we come full circle… I´m sure Andy is watching over his beloved family and he´s proud of you three, and he´s smiling…

    “Dream as if you would live forever, live as if you´ll die today”
    James Dean

    Greetings to all from Germany

  • Susana Matos Nunes

    This is the first year of the rest of your life… It’s difficult to choose the right words, If that even exist…
    I love how you describe Andy because in some way that’s how I saw/see him; and love the fact that he went into a “next great adventure”, I think is a much better way to see its passage.
    As we growing older there are many people who cross our lives. I see my life like a train, some people enter, some don’t, some get out, others stay… Andy entered, some how, in the lives of all of us, but without a choice he must to go out, “onto his next great adventure”.
    Lets honor this unique guy living our adventures as great as we all can!
    I wish one day I can have the pleasure of join to the good ones like I believe he is, onto that next great adventure, as a big happy family…
    XXX
    Don’t you dare miss it V., but… only maaanyyy years from now!
    Susana

    • Susana Matos Nunes

      I read once from a father who lost is son that loosing his son is like having an elephant to eat, and despite he lost his hunger he have to eat it every day. He thought that the day of the first anniversary of his lost would be awful but it was as awful as other days he have now!
      I wish never have to eat an elephant!…
      And wish your elephant decrease very much every passing day….
      Wish you can be strong once more
      With Love
      Susana

  • http://www.facebook.com/Epicspice Linda Hubbard

    Beautiful. Prayers and thoughts are with you and your little ones, today and always. Memory eternal, Andy.

  • Julie Morrison

    Nearly midnight here in the UK. Been thinking about you, Andy and the littles all day. Can’t believe a year has gone by since Andy passed. Sending you all the love in the world and the biggest hugs. xx

  • Simo

    Cosa posso dire che non è già stato detto da questa appassionata community?
    Posso solo lasciare una riflessione che per chi come me ama incondizionatamente questa meravigliosa creatura di nome Andy. Per chi come me trasale a ogni sua immagine. Per chi come me piange disperatamente come se avesse perduto un amico sincero. Per chi come me lo ricorda ancora dopo un anno rivedendo all’infinito le sue interpretazioni cercando di cogliere ogni volta un messaggio nuovo. Questo “sconosciuto” ha dato una scossa a tutti quelli che come me si erano messi in standby. E’ una cosa folle lo so. Sembra assurdo ma per me questa tragica perdita è stata lo spunto per proseguire la mia vita con più determinazione e con più amore verso chi mi sta vicino.
    Grazie Vashti per condividere con noi questi momenti meravigliosi e intimi.
    Dio vi benedica.
    Simona

    • Ten

       Mi sento clonato nel pensiero!! Dio vi benedica
      Ten

  • Madeleine

    Many Blessings to you this day Vashti, Indigo and Jesse. An angel departed from our world a year ago today but left us with so many wonderful gifts. May peace be with you always, and may Andy’s bright sunny rays shine down to comfort and guide you forever. XXX

  • http://www.facebook.com/audrey.gorman.7 Audrey Gorman

    All my thoughts, prayers and ((Hugs)) to you are your family.

  • Kristin

    May your heart be comforted by the the love you two shared and the love that surrounds you today!

  • Andrea

    Dear Vashti,

    your beautiful man lives on through his accomplishments, through his inspiring way of living and thinking life, not to mention through the two gorgeous kids you made together.

    Andy’s passage through this World is now and will forever be a constant reminder that it’s never too late to make our dreams come true and that we have to live our lives to the fullest.

    Thank you both for being so inspirational and for sharing such motivating thoughts!!

    Much love from Brazil.
    XOXO

  • jen osborn

    I have no words. Hugs Vashti.

  • Ana Zamora

    Hermoso Vashti. Abrazos para ti y los chicos, Andy debe estar sonriendo desde el cielo y estar muy orgulloso de ustedes. Xxooxx.

  • Jenny St. Peter

    My Grampy is taking care of him :)

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1467852672 Bonnie Armendariz

    Made me cry like many I’m sure. Reading about your special moments I can only think of what you must feel. What I might feel if I were to experince the loss of my husband or one of our children. Nothing but the greatest of love and respect for you. Sorry for your great loss and at the same time so greatful you got to experince it in your life. Relived to know that Jesse Red and Indigo Sky have the love of a strong father as well as there mother who will never let them forget. Who will always push them when needed and pick them up as well. A shoulder to cry on,laughs to share and life lessons. Andy must be smiling down and so proud of where you all are today. Looking ahead to tomorrow,being happy and living life.xxx

  • CARMEN GLORIA, CHLE

    …loves for you from Chile…for you and your beautiful kids….

  • danielle_b_28

    This is beautiful, thank you so much for sharing. You are a wonderful woman Vashti Whitfield. I look at life so differently after finding you and Andy. Your posts are full of love, laughters, tears, passion, honesty and beautiful, beautiful memories. I am amazed and in awe of you dear Vashti, and only wish I could be a fraction of the woman you are.
    Beatiful Vashti, if your every day is filled with sunshine, know that it is Andy beaming down on you all with tremendous amounts of love and pride. He will be so proud of the woman you are and how you are raising your gorgeous littles. x x
    Andy – today & every day you are missed and loved. Thank you for your legacy – not just for Be Here Now, but for leaving us all with your amazing, beautiful Vashti, Jesse Red & Indi. We love them and you, always.
    RIP dear man x x x x x x x x

  • Michaela

    Diese Worte sagen alles! Oh Vashti, wieso geht mir alles was du schreibst so unter die Haut? Warum machen mich viele deiner Worte und Geschichten hier so unsagbar traurig? Wieso geht uns das allen hier so nahe?
    Weil wir nicht verstehen können, wie so etwas wunderbares wie ihr vier, hier auf unserer Erde getrennt werden konnte.
    Ich schrieb hier mal, das es mir schwerfiel, Worte in Englisch zu finden, die das ausdrücken, was ich empfinde. Wenn ich jetzt ehrlich bin, so sitze ich hier vor meinen Tasten und mir gehen so viele Gedanken durch den Kopf. Ich finde auch in meiner Sprache nicht immer die richtigen Wörter!
    Deinen Schmerz zu fühlen tut weh. Deinen Verlust über deinen -Beautiful man- zu fühlen ist so stark und doch, auch wenn wir es so sehr wünschen, wir schaffen es nicht, dir dieses schmerzende Gefühl zu nehmen.
    Wir stehen dir bei und wir leiden, wie ich hier lesen kann mit dir und ich hoffe, das jeder liebe Kommentar hier wie eine kleine Umarmung für dich und eure beiden kleinen Sonnenscheine ist, die dir zeigt, das ihr drei nicht alleine seid!
    Ganz viele liebe Grüße aus Deutschland ♥

  • Rivke

    I hope the day was full of light, warmth, tears, laughter and LOVE.

    Lots of love to you and Jesse and Indi!

  • http://www.facebook.com/sopphia.pouli Sopphia Pouli

    one life is only one day in internity and love never ends ….and you will be sorrounded by his love forever ..and just be sure for that !Ι send my love to your beatiful family!

  • Faye

    Thank you for sharing such a beautiful memory. He was a glorious man, and his light will shine on for eternity . I wish i could have met him in life but his passing led me to your doorstep and now I’m part of the MMQ family . so thank you, luscious man, for leading me to your amazing wife and scrummy littles. Blessed be xx

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=749269663 Christopher Brown

    Thank you Vashti for sharing,,,,,,so much!
    I will forever feel blessed,inspired and gracious for the short time that I shared with Andy.Sending deep love,light and prayer to you, Jesse & Indigo.Much,much Love BD <3

  • serena

    Beautiful, beautiful………….. I have chills! This quote has been written for your family.

    It’s hard living without this beautiful person, i can understand your frustration , why a man like him with fortune, beauty, a wife, 2 children, an house, a splenid life to live , with desire of live, can DIE???????

    One day you’ll meet him again and nothing could separate you both. Since a year he is waiting you to live a new life together for the eternity. But before that day, you ‘ll live a gorgeous life with your littles, with your grandchildren and you will love again someone, but never and ever like you loved Andy, because he is your first love , your soul mate and nothing and no one can change it!Andy will accept the events of your future life because he wants your happiness and he will never be jealous because he is in peace and i believe that over there, there is no anger, madness , detestation, beacuse everything is peaceful.In the meantime where he is watching you from the above, he is creating a new home where you can pass the eternity and 2 new motorbikes so you can ride all the Paridise’streets together…
    Isn’t it beautiful?
    So keep thinking to this and enjoy life ( but i know that you already did it ! )

    I wish to meet you one day. Tonight i’ll tell him a prayer.

    Love from the bottom of my heart.

    Serena

  • Elena Ferro

    Beautiful man, beautiful woman…
    Thanks from the deep of my heart. Thanks for teach me to live in other way of thinking, to see the things’ another face, to know how all can be good or bad depending on how you look at them… thanks for calm my soul when I remember Andy… thanks for sharing your beautiful life with us.
    With all my love to you and your family,

    Hugs!

  • danigi64

    I’m writing from Italy and I got to know about your blog because I read your interview on Vanity Fair (Itally). I woul just like to let you know that you are incredibly brave, sweet, wonderful mother and wife. From now on, every time I see a butterfly my thoughts will always go to you and your two children. goodbye.

  • Rexx

    ….finding myself at my Mom’s beautiful backyard in Salzburg, enjoying the spectacular scenery and the unusual warm day….. and I still felt blue!
    Sent my blessings & thoughts out to you Vashti and your kids….
    suddenly I realized: HOW UNSUSUAL — SO MANY BUTTERFLIES IN THE GARDEN!!!
    My Mom, also the neighbors said: what’s going on?

    ….what a coincidence….

    Bittersweet!

    Love Rexx

  • Sarah Lampett

    life is so unfair when cancer takes from us such amazing talented people…the bravery the courage of andy and his family have helped me deal with my dads diagnosis recently of non hodgkin lymphoma…what a wonderful soul And beautiful man Andy Whitfield is xx

  • Pam Stewart

    Beautiful…nothing short of amazing the moments shared and words exchanged! Absolutely gorgeous…

  • Caia

    Del otro lado del mundo tocas mi corazón-

  • Marcisuasa

    Simply breathtaking!

  • Andreaf

    I just read this beautiful quote to my beautiful 8 year old daughter, Ava Rose, who is in Children’s Hospital of Michigan fighting Non Hodgkins Lymphoma….God Bless

  • Liz

    Oh bloody hell.. sorry .. love to all

  • Aurynsantiago

    Miss you Andy!

  • http://www.facebook.com/cortesbernal1 Marisol Cortes Bernal

    fue,y seguira siendo para mi hermoso <3

  • http://www.facebook.com/cortesbernal1 Marisol Cortes Bernal

    fue y seguira siendo para mi hermoso <3

  • Redwards816624

    You are a beautiful person and inspiration to us all! Thank you for sharing your life, stories and pictures of your family! Your fans and Andy’s fans sincerely love you from all around the world, you both have touched our lives and our hearts!

  • Yvonne K.

    I have to admit that I did not read the whole blog, because it would make me burst out in tears. 

    I think that only few can truly understand how it feels to lose the love of your life and what you were and still are going through. I wish I could take away some pain, but I can’t think of anything to say, that could really make that happen. 
    Remember Andy every day as the wonderful person he was, hold on to the memories as tight as you can and don’t let them fade away ever. May you and your family stay strong and blessed. You are in my prayers. 

    Lots of love from Austria.

  • M_perrault

    V,
    I get it.  I totally get it.

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1779181286 Anila M. Maharaj

    Really beautiful words! My sister was diagnosed with Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma when she was 15 and passed away when she was 18. I can relate to the struggles you faced, honestly I don’t think I could personally get over it. Thanks for continuing to blog even after your loss. It is really inspiring and uplifting. Wishing you and your family all the best…Andy will forever be our Spartacus!

  • Maricia

    So sweet!!