This week is a strange one for me, being the anniversary of a girlfriend lost, little Miss Indigo’s 6th birthday and of course later in the week, the day that my amazing in-laws brought the lovely little Andrew Whitfield into the world. Whilst it is indeed very much a time to celebrate life and love, it is also a rather confusing time emotionally, as you can imagine.
As I walked to work this morning, zipping up my jacket to an unexpectedly cold day after a blistering day of sunshine yesterday, I thought about my life right now being a constant flow of extremes – the ups and downs, on and offs, hot and cold of not only my emotional state, but of everything around me that I have chosen to create over the last few years. It led me to thinking about what has actually been the biggest learning for me so far and why it is that I continually chose to aim for the mountains of life, where the paths to walk are less clear and the risk to fall, much greater.
And this is what my walk to work gave me….
Life is like bravely and courageously walking across a tightrope, like a performance artist attempting a crossing, way up high with a cityscape far below and nothing other than their arms or perhaps a balancing pole to aid them. However in life, to allow you the opportunity to keep moving forward and to be I guess the intuitive leader in your own life, it is key that you learn what balance really means and the only way to really learn that is to explore what your key tipping points are. Wow, I am confusing myself here, so bare with me!
So if we go with my analogy and you are walking the rope, the point in which, that just for a second, you are neither tipping too far to the left or to the right, is in fact the ONLY time that you can clearly and intuitively take a breath to look calmly ahead, versus the overriding tendency to look in the direction you are tipping and therefore lose your balance.
Until now I have rather resented the extreme sways that I have ALWAYS created in my life, and the intensity of the incline that has made me have to work ever so hard to bring myself back up to level. But what I have realised, for the first time in my life, is that life, is actually all about the series of necessary tipping points that allow you clarify what it will take to re-establish balance in your life and whilst this might sound like a bit of a cheesy ‘wax on, wax off’ Karate Kid, moment, I think what I am finally understanding is that the real skill here is about becoming far more intuitive and accountable for understanding, knowing and implementing what is needed to help create the balance on the opposite side, which ultimately gives you the space, time and pause to reconnect with where it is you are ultimately heading.
So if you are still reading and I haven’t lost you in the mess of my convoluted post, here’ s what my my annual walk past the swing door has given me.
The most important thing that birth and death have gifted me so far is the courage and determination to, even having fallen hard and lost complete sight of where it is I was once heading, is to get back up onto the tight rope of life, put one wobbly step forward, spread my arms out wide and fix my gaze straight ahead and remember one simple rule, DON’T LOOK DOWN! and the rest will follow….
Nothing but love and thank you for all the Indi B’ day wishes x x x
Gratitude for the image sourced through Pinterest from http://instacanv.as/nois7/piece/262984646158641253_21317745